The Rays of Sunshine

Boy, has it been a rough 2 weeks. It feels like the month of September has been a blur. Up until a few weeks ago, everything has been going really well, Derek has been walking, almost, talking in his "own" words, and we have been bottle free for 2 weeks now. However the sleep schedule has been a different story. Now we have always had a hard time with Derek sleeping, he rarely sleeps through the night since we have brought him home, it almost feels like we have a newborn again, only this time he is big enough to kick, SCREAM, and run you into another room. Not to mention make you extremely exchusted, and want to cry every night with him because he will not sleep, and feel like the worst mom ever. We were doing good, we would put him to bed, he would cry, then he would go to sleep. Wake up at some point in the middle of the night, I would turn on his soother, move to the living room, and he would go back to sleep with in 30 minutes. Ricky and I would either go back to the

We have passed the 1 year mark with our little guy, and he continues to amaze me, impress me, and I love him more and more each day. When I look at him, my heart swells with joy, and love. He is a constant reminder of how blessed we are to have him! Earlier this month, we went to the Dr. for his 1 year check-up and can you believe that Derek now weights 22lbs! Well this was also the day for his shots, and it isn't any fun for me or him, so I had a treat waiting for him. As soon as the shoots were done, and he is screaming, I would be too if it was me, I pull out a sucker. He loved it. This was the first time I have ever given Derek a sucker. He enjoyed it so much, that he almost he it gone by the time we made it to the car. So once I get him in his car seat, I had to take it away from him, I couldn't risk a piece of it to breaking off, and him choking on it while I was driving down the road, so of course he cried, but a minute or so later he was over it! Derek is lear